Why is it that no matter how much I've done. It's never enough. Be it for friends, families or my relationship. What they gave you was a "it's not enough ", or "you deserve this". I'm upset. I'm terribly upset. Like who exactly could understand ? It's like a constant haunt where it felt as though I owed things.

As I sat down here in my living room. In deep thoughts, I said this to myself " come what may, I'm just gonna accept it " I guess its really now or never. Life. Relationships. Connections. Commitments. Could be so fragile. I'm prepared to accept changes in life. To be specific. Changes in life such as things and people I thought would stay in my life for permanent.

I do look forward to see how much I could do this time. And I'm very confident that this time I'm not doing for anyone. I'm doing it for myself. A test. A test on how far I will do to prove my stand. Yes wish me luck, and I can tell you. I thought through and rehearsed that scenario over and over again. Which is why im still wide awake here, at 4.07am.

Love.
Weiting

It's been awhile since i've updated this space. What actually motivated me to do up a post is my boyfriend. Sounds cheesy i know. but you know this loverboy of mine was whining at me on why i've never ever penned down any romantic thoughts on Facebook or any other social network you could think of. So I figured out that since I wanna do it, I might as well do it in my blog, a place where i feel more comfortable in penning down my thoughts, rather than Facebook "Notes" section haha.

at this point of time i definitely do need a quiet place for me to pour out my thoughts. twitter and facebook? nah.

no idea whether it's a good thing to be too free and waiting for the clock to strike 1230pm and i'll be dashing down to the mrt to meet my friends for xbox kinect session over at my place. but lunch first definitely, did i mentioned how hungry am i right now:( I've planned out how am i gonna spend my xmas eve, needless to mention reporting to work from 10am-1230pm on a pre-holiday is redundant. still wondering if yk wants to join dinner with me and my sister. the last thing i wanted is to leave my little sister alone on an xmas eve, could be considered a very special one from previous years as she's finally freed from the o-level gate of hell. Let's just hope she heals well from her broken heart=/

this is the boring part, yes the usual "new year resolution" which i THINK i had been doing it since 2005 when this site has been created. but who the hell ever fulfil these resolutions. i mean you don't live the year just to fulfil your resolution right. SO, this year i shall be smart. my only new year resolution (to sum up everything) is to be able to juggle well school work, extra pocket money, boyfriend, girlfriends and most importantly my family!

i guess i had a pretty boring 2010 as compared to 2009. i don't know why i'm so proud of the fact that i had a pretty crazy December during 2009. the best part would definietly be the zoukout09 and the sumptuous new year steamboat over at a friend's place. I've always loved to do countdowns with a group of close friends so that i could scream and hug my friends when the clock strikes 12, always loved sharing crazy moments with them and of course my partner-in-crime: lxy. a bitch. LOL. but well life gets different each year, though ,my life couldn't be as crazy as 2009, i'll still forward towards each year with a positive attitude:)

Merry Xmas and Happy new Year to alll!

nothing to lose. your love to win

For the 100th time, I reminded myself time and time again. 3 years of hard work is going to bring me to a much more promised future. I'm glad that I wasted no time as to which path to take after my poly life, for I know time waits for no one. And remember, it doesnt mean that if you take a different path from others means you're abnormal. Instead, people will admire you for your courageness for stepping out of your comfort zone, and pushing yourself to where you thought you can't be.

Why is it that no matter how much I've done. It's never enough. Be it for friends, families or my relationship. What they gave you was a "it's not enough ", or "you deserve this". I'm upset. I'm terribly upset. Like who exactly could understand ? It's like a constant haunt where it felt as though I owed things.

As I sat down here in my living room. In deep thoughts, I said this to myself " come what may, I'm just gonna accept it " I guess its really now or never. Life. Relationships. Connections. Commitments. Could be so fragile. I'm prepared to accept changes in life. To be specific. Changes in life such as things and people I thought would stay in my life for permanent.

I do look forward to see how much I could do this time. And I'm very confident that this time I'm not doing for anyone. I'm doing it for myself. A test. A test on how far I will do to prove my stand. Yes wish me luck, and I can tell you. I thought through and rehearsed that scenario over and over again. Which is why im still wide awake here, at 4.07am.

Love.
Weiting

It's been awhile since i've updated this space. What actually motivated me to do up a post is my boyfriend. Sounds cheesy i know. but you know this loverboy of mine was whining at me on why i've never ever penned down any romantic thoughts on Facebook or any other social network you could think of. So I figured out that since I wanna do it, I might as well do it in my blog, a place where i feel more comfortable in penning down my thoughts, rather than Facebook "Notes" section haha.

at this point of time i definitely do need a quiet place for me to pour out my thoughts. twitter and facebook? nah.

no idea whether it's a good thing to be too free and waiting for the clock to strike 1230pm and i'll be dashing down to the mrt to meet my friends for xbox kinect session over at my place. but lunch first definitely, did i mentioned how hungry am i right now:( I've planned out how am i gonna spend my xmas eve, needless to mention reporting to work from 10am-1230pm on a pre-holiday is redundant. still wondering if yk wants to join dinner with me and my sister. the last thing i wanted is to leave my little sister alone on an xmas eve, could be considered a very special one from previous years as she's finally freed from the o-level gate of hell. Let's just hope she heals well from her broken heart=/

this is the boring part, yes the usual "new year resolution" which i THINK i had been doing it since 2005 when this site has been created. but who the hell ever fulfil these resolutions. i mean you don't live the year just to fulfil your resolution right. SO, this year i shall be smart. my only new year resolution (to sum up everything) is to be able to juggle well school work, extra pocket money, boyfriend, girlfriends and most importantly my family!

i guess i had a pretty boring 2010 as compared to 2009. i don't know why i'm so proud of the fact that i had a pretty crazy December during 2009. the best part would definietly be the zoukout09 and the sumptuous new year steamboat over at a friend's place. I've always loved to do countdowns with a group of close friends so that i could scream and hug my friends when the clock strikes 12, always loved sharing crazy moments with them and of course my partner-in-crime: lxy. a bitch. LOL. but well life gets different each year, though ,my life couldn't be as crazy as 2009, i'll still forward towards each year with a positive attitude:)

Merry Xmas and Happy new Year to alll!

nothing to lose. your love to win

For the 100th time, I reminded myself time and time again. 3 years of hard work is going to bring me to a much more promised future. I'm glad that I wasted no time as to which path to take after my poly life, for I know time waits for no one. And remember, it doesnt mean that if you take a different path from others means you're abnormal. Instead, people will admire you for your courageness for stepping out of your comfort zone, and pushing yourself to where you thought you can't be.